i Write

I find myself struggling with inspiration
to write about something but whats my motivation
what story should i choose and what event should i address
and i cant think of anything...
then i think about it clearly, about what i hold on to dearly
its not my current situations, but the problems i was facing
as a child,
and then i realize that im not the only one who never got to speak
so this is why i write, i write for them not for me
i write for the kids struggling not knowing what to do
i write for the young boys thugging trying to fit in to be cool
i write for the little girl screaming daddy get off me
while her mom is only in the other room drinking her coffee
i write for the infants who was abandoned by their family
not knowing what it is so i know it can be damaging
i write for the little boy who's running in the streets
following the footsteps of his dad, but not knowing where they lead
i write for the little girls who pushing out all these kids
not knowing how to love them, because nobody ever did
i write for the young girl who was raped and killed by a uncle
never made the news because they didnt wanna stir up any trouble
i write for the young boys who do crimes just for attention
in and out of jail but never claim to learn there lesson
i write for the parents who drink away all there problems
ignoring there kids, and faced with situations not knowing how to solve them
i write for the dads who actually stayed in his kids life
but not being able to hold a job and not being able to provide
i write for the moms who have been left by there babys fathers
and struggling to take care of her kids, but cant even give them any water
working two jobs just to make enough to be broke
and still making it to spelling bees and soccer games
still providing christmas trees and candy canes
still managing to be all that she can be
when inside she's dealing with a pain that nobody can see
but she fights to be a mom and raise her children right
and when her kids take the wrong path, i can feel her start to die
i write for the millions of children who wake up everyday ready to die
never having anyone to love, tell them that their special in their eyes
i write for the young boy, educated and determined
but was faced with cancer and unfortunately lost a battle
no more shining star in the sky, but more tears in their eyes
i write for the young girl straight A student
got into a good college and had something to prove
self-motivated girl carried her own weight and pulled it
but was walking home late and killed by a stray bullet
i write for the parents who have to bury their children first
the rain doesnt seem to stop, the light taken away by a black hearst
the death never seems to end, and pain never seems to mend
but holding all that in, and wishing you could scream
i write for you so you can let go of that pain that you keep
yea i know its hard, but how you gonna live
with bottled up emotions because you never forgive
i write for those who smile but not knowing what its worth
and nobody knows there pain there just smiling when it hurts
i write for those who cry cause they havent got it out this long
dealing with it everyday because they thought it made them strong
i write for those who cant seem to ever stop stressing
faced with it every day and missing out on all there blessings
i write for those who dont have anyone to turn to
i write for those who never had any words to use
i write for the millions of people who cant seem to use there voices
i write for the millions more whos lives were taking over dumb choices
i write for the stories put to the side over all those irrelevant factors
i write for those who have a story to tell the ones that really matter
i know we all have our problems but this is nothing new
but there all millions of people out there who have it rougher than you
yea i may have a story and problems deep as the sea
but im writing for them cause this is bigger than me
im writing for all of you cause this is bigger than me..

Just Cause it's Wednesday

Today is a day i think about you a lot
Not different from any other day really
I just wanted you to understand how I’m feeling
I merely write u this for all the nights we missed
Not having you there to but despite of this
My sights still is missed
Meaning i don’t see no others
And she does the same
Our love can withstand fire, wind and rain
Trials and tribulations, anger, hurt and pain
But our love keeps getting up and up again
We portray positive predominant portraits of love
Circumstances affect the possibility of proper love
It’s painful without you present, cause you’re love is like a drug
Id go crazy for your kiss but I’m settled by just your hugs
Its rough, going days not having my moonlight
The suns nice but its not there when there’s no light
Meaning in dark situations you manage to brighten mine
Its taken time, being able to let you in
But I’m happy that i did and i feel like i just win
A medal of honor, a prize, trophy or the lottery
I know that’s its love cause I’ve given u a lot of me
What do you call it when you put someone else before yourself
Not being selfish but selfless, forgetting wellness or wealth
Sacrificing sanity cause love is insanity,
Like id be without you
Sometimes u call me crazy but the difference is,
I’m crazy about you
I know its hard to believe
But the way that you and me
Seem to always be on key
Were like autumn is to leaves
Cause when you're there I’m never to far
Even if I’m not there I’m still in your heart
When you look at old pictures and smile
Even though there from Tuesday
Today maybe be Wednesday but to me
Its still been too many days in between
So i think of what i could do with the time that i been given
I’m grateful for our Christmases, valentines and thanksgivings
Not to many know love unfortunately have not savored
But bless isn’t the word for me, I’ve been divinely favored
when i say im trying to get to know your insides im talkin about mentally
your mind is exquisite and i just want the recipe
passion and persistence turns pain into progress
so invest time, to let the path of our minds connect
being around you seems to stimulate my soul
and being without you seems to boil my heart whole
but its still the best feeling being in your presence
its a present and im grateful for the days we are blessed with
We could have our fun days, chill days, and our pretend days
But this is my appreciation for you Just cause its Wednesday...

Maintenance Man (2011)

It takes time to love someone whos been hurt
and u have to be willing to do extra to make it work
but tending to a broken heart takes delicacy,
persistance, love, and relevancy
so when i think bout how ya hearts been damaged
i think of ways to fix and manage
i think of how i can repair ya wounds
and patch them up like get well soon
i think of ways to improve the marks
and love you past your beauty scars
i thought and came up with the craziet plan
that i could be your maintenance man
im more than just a plumber that lays the pipe
im more than an electrician that turns u on like a light
i can do more than all the sexual things
but i am also capable of making you scream
i come when u need i fix whats been broke
i come with many features like a digital remote
you dont need the outside help cause baby i do it all
i show up on time and i never miss a call
if i were to be ya maintenance man
id repair ya heart safetly, i can
put it back together cause it was damaged by a fool
so ima need the time to fix it so ill be gettin out my tools
no profit needed just your satisfaction is my goal
the interest of your mind, body and im workin towards ya soul
im inspired by the way you seem to carry so much pain
and you manage to put a smile on that keeps the hurt away
but im here to make that smile stay so u will never have to cry
unless those tears are tears of joy then i hope they fill your eyes
cause when that hurt fills your eyes
i can see you start to hide
beneath the pain inside your soul u need to be revived
so until your back alive im here to tell u that i cherish you
i can make ya pain go away faster than a cold with theraflu
youve been carryin a burden and its time u lighten the load
i see a sunlight behind the clouds so let your expressions show
and when i see you really smile, a smile from your heart
then i have finished my services and your maintanence man will depart
but i will not leave u, just my role as a repair man is complete
but now im the man who'll love you like a new love should be
just me just you, we start fresh and brand new
no more hurt or no more pains
just enjoy our chance to love again

I'll Be That Asshole (2010)

Who told u it was cool for u to be a model
when most models got coke bottle shapes and u not hot tho
what is the point for you havin ya pictures takin
when u look like a soggy slim jim in the face
falsifyin ya selfesteem to make u feel better
and u was the one who really thought doin that was clever
im not one to hate but bein a model is a profession
some dont qualify and im sure youll learn that lesson
when they say "young man" what did u come here for
and u say "im a girl" and they laugh u out the door
im not tryna break selfesteems
im tryna break thru these false human means
why you chose a path in which u dont qualify
inherting greatness but placing it to the side to be in a public eye
if your not attractive and u need proactive dont play yaself
be passionate get ya graduates stack ya bread and build ya wealth
not everyone can be blessed like that
but fortunately God gave u something u were good at
...who told u it was cool to be a rapper
when u have a better chance at being a actor
because all u doin is lying and create a false persona
sayin u robbin niggas and shootin niggas when u live in arizona
the suburbs part with the green grass and the tall trees
but u sayin in ya rhymes u kill niggas and spark leaves
u say you got street cred but nobody even knows you
and u lame with all the shit u say thats why nobody promotes you
you think its cool to be what u see in the media on tv
but half of those niggas sayin dog u dont even wanna be like me
cause u sacrifice you personal life u cant go or chill no more
u need to move like 15 times cause u have new groupies at ya door
not sayin thats not cool but what happens when u in court
and she got a child 8 months old n she lookin for child support
u thought it be cool u just hit it and get some brain
but u stuck with her for 18years and ya money down the drain
havin to be seen as a public icon in everthing u do
cause people make mistakes sometime but its 100x worse for you
not everyone can be blessed like that
but fortunately God gave you something u were good at
...who told u it was cool to be fuckin every dude
you 14 years old n you got somethin in ya stomach not food
u thought shit was cool and u really like the feelin
but ya ass is 8months pregnant now n now ur not appealin
so the dude that u was messin with decided that he should leave
and now u stuck raisin his baby while he out there plantin seeds
and for u to get dragged into it just makkin u seem worse
cause now u crazy baby mama and it haunts u like a curse
how the fuck did shit happen like that n why u rushin so much
it would have been better to wait a while but u was anxious to fuck
dudes will say anything just to get u in the bed
he slingin shit and confusin u and messin with ya head
alot of people wish they can take that back
but fortuantely God gave you somehting to keep your smile intact
...i say what i feel and i dont worry bout the reperucssions
but you need to let your goals fuel your motivation to reach for something
but we dont have all life to notice the mistakes thats right infront of us
instead people actin dumb and it make it look bad for all of us
stop bein dumb think bout what u doin before you do it
this is everyday life u can see it everywhere to prove it
u might not wanna hear it but shit is real u lose respect
be who God wanted u to be and not a fake person with a bad rep
if u feel offended in the least then jump off a fuckin flag pole
somebody had to say it so i guess ill be that asshole...

Poetry (Seductive) 2010

As we walk in to the room lights off and we can feel the pressure
i take her to the bed take her shirt off and drop it on the dresser
things may get critical 2morro but im not bout to stress her
cause we both part of 2 different families this will not be remembered
i had a lil to much to drink and thats no excuse for this
but soon as we locked eyes after that the next thing lead to a kiss
i usually dont do this but right now im to caught up in the moment
i lay her on the bed she talkin softly tellin me she want it
man this freaky talkin shit be havin me thinkin about a part 2
but that isnt possible and part 1 will be forgotten along with you
so we here be clear that this a one night stand
so im not catchin feelins cause in the mornin u goin back 2 ya man
i usually take my time but why not go all out for this, the moments free
i tell her mama after tonight u gone get hooked off just this dose of me
i wanna tell u some things in ya ear baby i call it poetry
u dont have to like it we can skip it and u can pose for me
but i just wanna say some words and get u wet with my poetry
...i lift her legs up high kiss her ankles watch her reaction change
she said boy stop playin i told her baby this far from a fuckin game
i put my tongue on her thighs her eyes start to dialate
i told her youll be cummin ima eat it like a dinner plate
by the way she reactin i can tell that she never had it like this
so im inside of her thighs i get closer and i gently place a kiss
the way she moanin turns me on and she knows it cause she hears my voice
i move my hands up her thighs closer and i can tell shes moist
i look her in the eyes lick my lips and she already know
i take her panties off and im in between like a field goal
then i told her tonight u gone get hooked off this does of me
i wanna tell u some things in ya ear baby i call it poetry
u dont have to like it we can skip it and u can pose for me
but i just wanna say some words and get u wet with my poetry
...i take off her shoes and her toes got that red candy paint
i understand she got a man but to her im the man he aint
so i lick from her toes to her thighs and watch her roll her eyes
im in her naval she cryin out im i said girl we can be loud inside
im in between her legs and said YES as she grippin the sheets
i told her i got more instore dont rush it baby or you gone be to weak
i got a couple tricks and some things i need to show to her tonight
cause when i give it to her good i want her to feel like she bout to fly tonight
yea cloud 9 would be below us as i put her legs up on my shoulders
im grippin her thighs tighter as her climax is gettin closer
and im swimmin in her water
im ready to cut, like a barber
i felt her clinch up as she started to scratch all over my body
i dive a lil deeper im a professioal girl this aint no hobby
i dont wana wait i give it till she cant take no more
her body starts shiverin and i told her i got more instore
then i told her baby tonight youll be hooked off this does of me
i wanna tell u some things in ya ear babe i call it poetry
u dont have to like it we can skip it and u can pose for me
but i just wanna say some words and get u wet with my poetry
by now she cant control her voice
she escalated from being moist
now its like a waterfall
and i can hear her moans through her jaw
i smile at her i told her boo this is just the beginning
i can tell you gettin weak on me girl no use in pretendin
but she quickly change it up and now im laying down on my back
im feelin things i never felt and shes lovin the way that i react
she got my eyes rollin im like damn girl you goin hard on me
she speed it and and move her head and then she slow it down on me
she told me ima have u feenin when im finished u gone dream bout me
ima do some things and say some words just call it poetry
u gone be missin me later, like im oversees
but right now im all ears boo tell me some of your poetry

I Love You More?

So many things left unsaid
the worrying and the waiting
the loving and the hating
not knowing what to do
waiting hurts and forgetting hurts
but not knowing what decision to make is worse
you suffer together when the world is against you
but you suffer alone when your against each other
which pain hurts more
which one is worth fighting for
Love can be the problem and the solution
but you cant make that decision alone
it takes two to make it through
effort on both ends and sacrificial actions
giving up wants substituting them with needs
but is that really all we need?
to think that this thing has gotten so far
and to throw that away is that going too far?
i never wanted to,
but i cant speak for you
fighting seems to be the only way that we
can use our arguments to tell the truth
and i know i act like i dont care sometimes
but sometimes it hurts me much more than it hurts you
but if fighting for you and not with you
is the only way to get through to you
then put on your gloves and lets go a couple rounds
cause you're not worth living without
and yes that means im willing to stay
if we love each other wouldnt we find a way
to make things work?
to put love first
going through what we went through
and wishing i could tell you the truth
and sometimes i wish that you just knew
but living without you is more like dying without you
and i even had dreams of me crying without you
even though those tears werent reality
the pain is still the same
all to just talk to you, and hear you say my name
so i guess this is the way for me to put my feelings into words
and acknowledging my mistakes and hoping we have more to come
Remember all those fights of "i love you more"?
i guess it looks like i won...

"I Love you more?" poem coming soon...

Island Gettaway (2010)

I could compare you to a sunrise but thats already been taken
tellin you i feel closer to u ever night when im praying
i could compare you to the stars and how they light up the sky
similar to the way your smile seems to light up your eyes
i could stare at your for days your face erases my pains
the way waking up to someone you love the very next day
if that person was you then you would never hear me complain
i call u my sunshine so i could beg for some rain
so i can appreciate you greater
and cater to u like a waiter
if i can measure your beauty in distance you would be bout a acre
i could compare you to the moonlight
but you beauty last more than just night
and even tho the moon is accompanied by the stars
i can see that entire night in the left side of your eye
to compare you to something u accomplish with out trying
doesnt seem to hold a candle no use in me lying
so i could compare you to a flower
but you bloom every hour
i could compare you to a park
but you shine after dark
i could compare you to a beach
now that seems like something worth inspecting
cause a beach has a different beauty to it every other second
but not just an ordinary beach somewhere vast and erotic
like a island in the caribbean that can past for exotic
like how some of the waters appear to be so pure
and it seems to capture every bit of your allure
how the trees sway back and forth with ease
and it reflects both of our personalities
how we seem to move with rhythm
we're special like autism
we cure each other symptoms
in my heart you've made a kingdom
and if i were to be your king
or your maharaja in some dialetcs
and u can be my queen
and we can go on a private jet
to my island gettaway
where i can be in a place
that seems to hold the slightest flame
and makes me wanna change ya name
in my island gettaway
where i can see your eyes at night
in the reflection of the moonlight
burns bright like a candlelight
in my island gettaway
i can tell you how i feel
as we move back and forth in rythm
like the trees thats all out here
in my island gettaway
whenever i hold your hand
it has the warmth of the sand
and now i understand
You are my island gettaway.

Bella Loca (2009)

They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder
but i behold a beauty that my eyes have never seen
until i had u standin right here infront of me
bella loca is what u can call it
crazy beautiful indeed she is flawless
enough to make u bite ya tongue when u speak
and send chills down your spine when u meet
its hard to portrait how she can make u feel
see these other girls are sexii but she has more appeal
ur beauty is crazy
and constantly u amaze me
because the most beautiful thing about u is not they way u look
its ur personality and how u have me open like a book
its your smile got u stuck in my head like my favorite hook
its your intellect and the way u speak that got me shook
i try not to let the thought of her get the best of me
but if i had to make my dream girl u contain the recipe
and i look at u from all angles jus to get a better view
and my respect for u has u posted on a pedastal
if this was VH1 id fight to the death for u
And u are it, so aint no on to the next with u
She is, simply that statement, she is
what u can look for in a woman cuz She is far from a girl
she is, more valuable then platinum, diamond or pearls
she is the wings that i fly with the lungs that help me breath
she is the beauty of flowers blossomin on spring trees
bella loca can only be found in those special women
the thought of her lips drown me and its worth the swimmin
see i have a 4.0, wit my flow
but she has a glow, that affects my blood flow
u see with this verse ill prove my best not my worst
ill overcome a curse, ill battle to prove my worth
u see its you and i verse the universe
bella loca she gives me the ability i need
because we are a king and queen
and sometimes i feel u thru my blood stream
and as crazy as it may seem u have that affect on me
me and you or you and me, doesnt matter we are the team
your conversation is like good lovin idont kno when to end it
u are more than jus someone i want to be friends wit
ur crazy beauty turns my soul dependent
if i can give a piece of me take my heart as a pendant
and lately truly your crazy beauty
has made me fully and given me duty
bella loca your love runs through me
and i thank God for bringin u to me

Facebook (Written 2009)

So i think im addicted to ya facebook page
steady on ya profile readin thru ya updates
its crazy cuz all of facebook knows that u the baddest
every 45 seconds u got me checkin on ya status
i do read alot, thru ya news feed alot
in my top friends girl i got u at the top
everytime u online girl i hit u with that line
how u doin mama jus wana let u kno that u a dime
but on second thought u like a 5star chick
idont even know where to find any girls that thick
but ya status says that ur in a relationship
idont know where my patience went
but i really dont wana wait for this
i see u post how ya dude dont be treatin u right
i jus get on ya profile and im already clickin like
i think of what to say like...
u dont deserve that leave those corney dudes alone
i can tell u what u need if u hit my mobile phone
but idont know sometimes my words be gettin chopped
im thinkn what kinda message i should send to her inbox
or maybe i should leave a comment on the wall
on second thought im reconsiderin doin it all
but if i comment n say u deserve better mama
i dont really want that 2 start up any drama
her friends say girl ya man good dont let him go
but truthfully i feel like all her friends is hoes
im not really tryna get ya friends exposed
but i seen some unpleasant things in ya girls photos
i kno u link wit all ya girls and like to run in groups
and u attracted to them type of dudes that hoops
but ya dude not good for u girl i got proof
he blocked u from a album
he took pics wit this chick, he tried to picnik
and blurred out all the girls around him
im not really tryna do this jus for laughs
but ya dude got more girls than facebook got apps
but im not tryna get in ya face
if i could id make u up ya own fan page
click like on all ya pics and tag u in videos
makin all my statuses shootin subliminals
i tried to prevent my time from bein spent
i even click attend to all ya damn events
i sent u soul mate requests n compatability test
look at ya half nakes pics n invisionin u undress
if i could pick the lover of the day it b u 365 times
but even that wouldnt be enough unless i multiplied it by a lifetime
so what more can i say but im far from being bitter
im addicted to ya facebook but i jus heard u had a twitter

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